John's testimony and ministry

my  name is John, and I was repented in 2005,then I devoted myself to God .I was a preacher in a house church. I am from An’hui province. And my native place is Gui’zhou. Because I am a outlander, since I was young, a lot of kids around me larghed at me, and they looked down upon me. And give me a nick name ‘ruled boy’,at that time I told myself, when I was grow up, I must be do my best to do everything well and tramp those who looked up on me and return what they have done for me. So I am very boasted. And my heart is full of envy and bitterness, and hatred is full of my heart.

My family is very poor in my memory, and my farther is a farmer. He didn’t get any education. And he is a honest farmer, and he often did a lot of building jobs as a farming worker. Even if he went out, he still has to work on the same job. Just collect some trash and make popcorn. In order to make a little money to make living, he has to work outside,when the busy time is coming, he has to come back to do house jobs. My foster father is good with me. And he never beats me. And he has good relationship with my mom. Then my mother gave birth a little brother to me. And my grandma also lived with us. Through my family is poor, but it’s very warm. And I quietly told myself that when I was enough old, I must work hard and make my family have a good days. And requit my foster father. During that time. There are a lot of Christians in our village. And they are often laughed by others. Even I think they are disability and they just find a mental to release. And I never think they are normal. When I went to middle school ,I often flight and prepare for a dagger to fight.( after I repented. This dagger becomes my tool to plant flowers),In 2003, It’s my second year in my middle school, my father’s throat felt bad.later his throat has some problems, he can’t speak. Whatever we do, it can’t recover. Go to hospital and the doctor told us it’s the end of the cancer. And bad tumor oppressed the nerves. So he can’t speak. This is heavy attacking for this family. And during the time my little brother just went to the grade 2.he was younger seven years old than me. And my grandma was more than eighty years old. This family is attacked by this bad news. And we were hopeless. But we went to anywhere we can go so that we can find a good doctor to save this family. Traditional Chinese medicine and westerner medicine, we bought a lot of medicines which we even knew what it is. And we tried our best to do everything we can do for this family. We were careful for every piece of advertisements in the broadcast or TV. Even when I saw a pice of paper, I will be careful to see if it is useful. Our family is very poor, this time we get into a big trouble . Soon our family fall into economic danger. There are so many people to be suffering and sick in china. I really understand how cold it is in this world. My father’s brother gave us one thousand yuan, nobody gave you any help when you are get into trouble. And my cousins is good with us. Because my father is good with them also when they were young. They gave us a  little money to support us. But the money is still not enough to pay for the hospital. At last the doctor advise us to give up healing and spend more time with my father in his ending time. Then we came back. Because my father is very good man and he is very honest he is always helping people. . So there are a lot of people to visit him and restore a little money for healing . At the beginning of days, someone went to visit him every day nearly. Some gave him 200 yuan, some gave 100 yuan, some gave several yuan. Even some gave their eggs and fish to us. We are so moved by their actions. And our tears can’t stop flowing for this. And my mother is a thankful woman. She took a small note book. And wrote these moving things one by one. And she told me to remember those who helped us for ever. A auntie of our village told us the gospel. And she told us that Jesus can heal my father’s cancer. We believed in Jesus at that moment.but we can’t understand what the truth is for Gospel. We just expect our farther can get better soon. We went to a temple to pray for our father. We ask gods can heal my father. We hope our father is peace, in 24 hours we took turns to take care of my father. He had been sick for three months, he can’t move on the bed, we prayed for his peace.he can’t rely on himself to live normal life.and every day we had to take care of his living. When he eat we must feed him. And his stomach excreted a lot of spit. We must clean his mouth every day. And go to toilet he can’t rely on himself. We must do everything to take care of him. In those days, I felt so hopeless and helpless. But I am afraid to give my mother more burden, I pretend it’s nothing happened. I always cried with a quiet a place, until I can control my tears. I spend my life as this for serval months.

In 2003, lunar calendar is on 29th February, my father passed away.in my painful time, we buried my father. Since then I never believe in any god or belief. After several years, I knew a case. When my father died, his brothers want to divided our family. And my grandma is alone. They made my mother leave home. Because we are outlander. They gave my bother to my third uncle. Because they worry about they can’t get a boy. So the whole family against my education. But my mother don’t want to leave any regret for me, so she chose to go out to do some odd-jobs in order that I can continue to go to high school.but I knew there are a lot of debts in our family. So I didn’t want to increase mother’s  worrying. So I chose to go out to work and make living. Because I knew I must be a man to support this family after my father died. I should take this burden for my mother. At that time I was just 16 years old. Because I am older than my real age in the registered permanent residence. So I can get a ID,with my beautiful dream and eager. I and my mates went to Tian’jin, we sold some simple goods on the side of the streets, guards drove us away. Then SARS was spreading, so I was worried about my family. At last I went home, after the SARS, I went to a coal to load the coal  with my mates of village.then we went to Mongolia to pick medlars. Then I went to Chang’chun, and I am as a apprentice in a restaurant. I was a waiter there. And the salary is very low, it’s just about 200RMB. And every month it will add 50RMB. The most salary is 350RMB.Then it’s the top of the salary. And the boss is from our hometown. He wants to find some new worker to work for him. After three months, I sent 500RMB to home. And I am very excited.This is my first time to feel that my life is valuable.

Because we were new workers there. So our working time was very long ,at least 15 hours a day. And we didn’t have any holiday and weekends.as long as we can walk, we had to go to work. And the boss often blamed us. And the guests often made some troubles for us. When suffered grievance, I wanted to go home. And crying under the quilt quietly. But I called at home every time. I boasted I was so pretty as if I was in heaven so that my family can release their hearts and decrease their worrying.I told my mother my Colleagues were very friendly. Because I don’t know how to take care of myself. And the northeast is very cold. So I got a cold. Because I didn’t go to hospital immediately.so it cased lung’s  problem. Then I got a fever. Because I didn’t care about it. And I was very busy. I didn’t have more money to give hospital in this big city. So I just took some medication. But it’s not useful for me. So it become  pulmonary disease. It’s very serious,walking is difficult. My breath was very deep. So I went to hospital again. And I had to injected. But it’s very expensive. So I didn’t go. Then I didn’t care about it. During spring festival,I went home. I found the salary is very low in northeast. Then I went to Ningbo, because I had a friend there. He still worked in a restaurant. Because I was a new worker. So I had to begin as a learner. So the first month I just got 350RMB. My heart felt sad. Because the living expense is very high. I just bought some instant noodle. I just have four days to rest a month. When I was free, I just went around then sleep on the bed. I have strong self-esteem, so I didn’t want to lend money to my friend. The second month I got 400RMB,after that, every month I can got a little more money. When I felt my life is a little better. a colleague said I was fatter than before.(my abdomen had some water)I just thought probably because my life is better. And I was a little fat, so I am not careful about it. After several days. A morning, when I ate my breakfast, I felt my hand is tremble. I have no any strength. Even I can’t take the spoon. I I felt so terrible. A  kind-heart colleague told me to go to hospital and make a examination. Because I never went to the big hospital.and I didn’t know the complex process. So I haven’t  to wait until he worked off. Then he brought me to the first people hospital in Ningbo city, the doctor made a examination for me, the first we made a hemodialysis,then we made another examination.when I hold the CT report. The doctor is very surprised. He asked about my age and my parents and my address. He asked me why my parents didn’t come with me. And it’s serious I have to be in hospital. And I had to have a operation. I was very sad. I told him I didn’t want to heal. And I hold the fees to run out. Leave my colleague there. And I run into the bathroom to cry for a  long time, I remembered my father who was passed away . And my swinking mother and young brother.hatred is from my heart,  I hated that life is not fair for me.I complained for all of the bad things to cover me. At late I called at home. And I told them I was sick. and I was in hospital. But the expense is very expensive here, I wanted to go home. My mother answered me. If you wanted to go home. Come back. At that moment my tears was flowing from my face. When I went back to the restaurant, our manager saw my case history book and examining report, he paid for my salary and gave me another 300RMB and told me to go home to heal! He told me he would leave a position,if I was recover, I can come again. So I went home. The second day I went to the hospital and made a examination.I went to serval different big city-hospitals except psychiatry,but the the result of examination is the same.There are a lot of water the abdominal cavity,and These places have many lymph nodes When there is a big in the neck edge, as big as a small egg. Finally the doctor said liver function has some problem, the lung is white under X-ray,  Some doctors said it’s  late liver cirrhosis ascites, tuberculosis, some said, and there are complications of tuberculous pleurisy and tuberculous peritonitis, it can't be healed, for the treatment of pulmonary medicine will hurt liver, protecting liver medicine will hurt lung . And I  can't eat something with oil or salt. Finally, the first hospital, the old dean quietly told my mother and my uncle that I can’t live more than six months. At that time my mother was crying. But later she is afraid I knew this and avoid to influence me, she didn’t say with me. At that time , there is a policy, treating tuberculosis has  some free medicine.some are free, some are charged, so we bought a lot of medicine , then we went home with these medicine as my passed father . When we came back my situation spread over the whole country. Soon, my former classmates and  friends came to see me, in my remember,there was a good classmate, he was a punk in the class. He was almost crying, swear said: xiaofei , was there anything you can tell  As long as brothers can do it, brothers would do anything, although we are very sad but it was so touching. The fellows in the village again devoted some money for me for me, the same as, my mother also has written down, in my remember there was a old woman. Leaning on a crutch. From one wrapped with several layers of ragged handkerchief took a crumpled 5 RMB,my mother didn’t want to receive it, because she knew this old woman has no any income. It looks like a widow’s tow pennies. But that old woman still insisted to give. She said she can’t help us ,but we can use this money to buy some fruits.as my passed father, I stayed at the home and spent my time. During this time, I secretly cried many times.but I was unwilling to be this. But I can’t do anything. I  always shew my optimistic in order to let my mother not be anxious. A lot of medicine  will hurt a stomach, every day to eat a lot of different kinds of  medicine, finally I took some medicine made me  regurgitate,but in order to take medicine, I just picked lots of green grapes, because it is very acid, every time take medicine, I ate a green grape, then mouth full of sour taste, then when I  took  medicine, it’s so so bitter, so I stayed at home day by day . At that time, mother let me look at the bible, but when I remembered my father’s death, I just thought Spiritual sustenance, I even feel bored for it . My mother often played the Jesus’s life to let me watch. but I am always not willing to see.

One day my mother urged me to believe in Jesus. She told me only Jesus can save me. At that time I cried, I thought I had no future, I really didn’t know where my future was, and my mother told me, you would die, where was your future? I though about my mothers’ words. It’s true. So when I came back. I took the CD with my confusion to watch. I watched it secretly, it gave me deep impression. There was a picture that Jesus baptized in the jordan by John.at that moment, Jesus’ look didn’t appear. And I didn’t know that person was Jesus in that movie. Just a pair of feet walked, at that moment, my heart is so moved. And my tears is flowing from my eyes. I felt I was so relaxed. The same as I have some hope.at the end of the movie,when the those soldiers mocked and beat Jesus, I can’t control my guilty. I really wanted to beat that soldier who beat Jesus.my tears was flowing , I can’t control myself. At that moment, I keeled on the front of the God. I gave myself to God.my life, my burden,all of mine I gave it to God, I was so happy and peace at that moment. I was thinking if God heals me, I will live a good life for him.even if he didn’t heal me, I can be stay with him in heaven. So however the result is, I will be joy to receive.later, I went to the church and attend the gathering and watch the CD. When I have no time to take medicine. I prayed :God, Lhasa died for four days in the bible, but you can make him  resurrect. I was not dead,I was just
Ill. And I had no time to take medicine, you can heal me. So I threw away all of the medicine, just like this ,I was better than before. Even I didn’t know specific time  I was well.I spent those years, and I was alive. This is God’s power. Now when I was weak ,I took the medical records out to see. After I saw, I became strong. Those recorders are my testimony today.in these years I was still alive. And I didn’t know how many years I can live ,is it 10 years or 20 years, 30 years, or 50 years? I really don’t know ,but I know as long as I am alive, that is God’s grace. So I must live well as his will. Though sometimes I didn’t be alive as his will ,but I know he knew my weakness,and he will forgive me. He will give me enough strength to live as his will, May glory give it to Him.amen

All of this is my repented testimony. Being belongs to God, he never gave up,we experienced him by the suffering, and we can see our weakness clearly. And we know how to rely on him and search his way. He gave us a lot of blessing by suffering. He made us change our life , some people said I had this unusual experience. That’s so amazing. ^^,I just want to say, I am just a normal person, just because I meet a unusual God, Jesus loves me, in fact, he still loves you.

blessing testimony

After I believe in Jesus, I devote myself to God,and I become a preacher with my whole time. At first I really don’t know what God wants me to do. Just follow church’s arrangement. What they arrange, what I do, so I attend all kinds of activities, because I am a little young. So I am interested in social caring .but I served in a traditional church. And for this ministry, there aren’t enough time to do. So most of the time. I just can do this ministry in my spare time, I visited the believers’ family with some aunts. Or we went to the tumors’ hospital to spread the gospel. One time, when I took the taxi, I told the driver the gospel. Driver agreed me. And he told me those who has belief are kind-heart. But most of the believers are good with Christian Bubble. But for those who are not believers, your good-heart is not so munch. What he said made me think of it. Because his word is true. Most of the time, we ignore Christ’s caritas when he lives in this world. So his word is always in my heart. Later, I and some youth people choose to go to the big city to serve or serve at a developed area. One of the brothers asked me where I would serve, in a big city or a small town? I can’t say anything, and I didn’t know, I am not spiritual enough to go to a poor area to serve,surly, I am not so secular to serve in a big city. I just want to where God lets me go really needs me. In those years, I have no clear goal. And I don’t know how to start. When I served for a while time. I think I need to know more, so I want to spend two years to study theology in order to equip myself well.But my church is very traditional.And they against I study theology. They think the best teacher is Jesus. If you read bible and pray well, but I can’t accept this view, and I still decided to go , so I went and studied theology for two years. And during this period, we have a short trip to know about Tibetan people. Our roles are as researchers to close to them. During this process, I found they are very poor, and their life level is behind of another nation. And their zeal is blind worship for religious. Even they are enthusiasm. Their enthusiasm is more than christian. We try our best to work hard, but they just make living.Feodal marriage custom made a lot of people become orphans and single family. Even they throw away their babies. Poor stiff life made them become slave though they are very young. So they serve masters in order to they have something to eat and wear. Uncultured narrows their understanding.they don’t know the world except grassland.cruel reality makes them have to send their kids to be a Lama in order to avoid to starve them. At that moment I was thinking. If they have Jesus, how do they do? When I came back, their life is always in my minds.I can see they suffered a lot of great difficulties from their faces. And in my memory  they always hold their praying stuff to pray godly. And the darkness is against the light. Later, among a sermon, I found myself answer, that sermon I preached the calling of Messiah,seeing the need of this time. Messiah devoted his life. In this time, it is the same. This responsibility and the sense of mission, it belongs to those who can see others’ needs. So when I graduated, I choose to stay among the Tibetan people, in the middle of them, show Christ’s love, because they are loved by God. And their nation is loved by God. here are 20
Gathering places, and the most of them are han people. though a few Tibetan people accept the gospel, but their understanding can’t be measured. I just came here for one year. God will let us see what happened next!

Prayer points: this ministry needs to pay for more than any other ministry, and harvest is not so much. Please pray for Han people here. They are very good link. They will be official in Tibet. Thanks for your help and support, God will give us reward.